Goal #1: Run the B
Standard for 2016 Trials (Sub-2:43)
Goal #2: Run a PR
(Sub-2:41:52)
Goal #3: Run
sub-2:40
Actual: 2:40:28, 9th
female, $1000, splits at bottom of post
As I got out of the
car at the Charlotte airport on Friday, Garrett yelled at me "Get the
A-standard!" before closing the door and zipping away. I shook my head at
him, both for his unwavering confidence in my abilities, but also for shooting
for the stars. Despite his vote of confidence, my goals were a little
different. I knew that on a great day with perfect conditions, I was ready to
run around 2:38-2:39. Given the fact that I Gallo-walked at the Olympic Trials
Marathon in January 2012 and also failed to make it to the start line of Philly
Marathon 2012, running that fast was somewhat daunting. I hadn't run a marathon
in almost two years. However, my workouts and races over the past two months
indicated that I was primed and ready to achieve my goals.
Sunday definitely wasn't perfect, but I still achieved a substantial PR, punched my second
ticket to the Olympic Trials and earned $1000 for my efforts. I'm pretty damn
happy!
The weekend unfolded
on Friday with an early 6:00AM flight out to Houston and then Sacramento. The
rest of the day was pretty uneventful. I didn't qualify for any other benefits
besides an elite entry, so I spent almost $700 on the trip here including rental
car, hotel, gas and food. This just provided me extra motivation to get the
Trials standard and prove the coordinators wrong.
The rest of the day
went like this: I drove to the Residence Inn in my bright red rental car, went
for a solo five mile run along the river, picked up my race bib before walking
to a delicious restaurant for whole wheat pasta. After eating at 4PM, I went to
Safeway to get some food and decorated my water bottles before going to sleep
at 6:30PM. During these hours by myself, I really wished that I had bought a
ticket for Garrett to come out here with me.
Meagan's flight landed around the
time I was changing into my pajamas, so I didn't get to hang out with her until
the next morning.
Meagan and I, along
with Jeannette Faber and Brett Ely, jogged together on a beautiful Saturday
morning. We all noted that this weather would be perfect for a marathon,
knowing that the temperatures tomorrow would be about 20 degrees cooler. My
legs felt absolutely great, and I knew that tomorrow at least one of my goals
would be attained. The rest was the day was spent using as little energy as
possible in the elite hospitality suite, my hotel room, or at a restaurant with
Meagan and Brett. For lunch, we ate at a fabulous vegan restaurant,
Plum Cafe, where I easily spent $40
on lunch and baked goods for post-marathon. Brett and her husband are vegan, so
I was glad she was there to encourage us to go! Our group, with Jeannette, ate dinner again at a
cute Italian restaurant that evening before we all headed back to our
respective hotel rooms with our goals for tomorrow looming over our shoulders.
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| Dinner with Jeannette, Meagan and Brett |
At 7:30PM, I went to
bed and at 3:30AM, I woke up, got ready, and was waiting for a bus by 4:45AM
with Brett, Matt, Drew, Jeannette and Meagan. There wasn't a dedicated elite
bus, so this awesome guy escorted us in front of about 300 other runners, knocked
on the door of an empty bus and kindly asked: "These are professional
runners, may they load your bus now?" The bus driver responded:
"Well, I'm a professional bus driver, so hop right on!" We all
cracked up at that, and I was very appreciative since it was 24 degrees outside
with a small headwind.
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| Waiting for the Bus - Brett's face got cut off :( |
After 45 minutes on
the bus, we arrived at the elite tent that was heated for about two minutes
before the generator went out, taking the lights with it. For about 15 minutes,
we had heat intermittently, until they finally figured out that they were given
a generator without any gas. It was damn cold. We even put our shoes in our
plastic gear bags because it helped a little bit. Once that was fixed, it was
already time to start getting ready. Meagan and I jogged about five minutes
together before we were told to leave the comfort of our warm tent. I did some
strides, went to the start line and about thirty seconds later, had started the
marathon that I'd prepared for over the last three months. There wasn't even a
gun to signal the start. If there was, it was lost in the moment. My best
friend Meagan was at my side and it felt like any other race we've run
together.
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| The Start - Meagan is near the bottom left and I'm a couple of meters behind |
The first six miles
of the marathon were my favorite because Meagan was with me. We started out at
6:04 and 6:03 before the downhills got longer and longer, and our splits got
faster and faster. It didn't feel hard and I willed myself to back off the pace,
but at times it felt physically impossible given the downhill. Around mile 3,
unbeknownst to me, there was a patch of black ice. My foot slipped, and my arm
automatically wheeled up, smacked Meagan on the shoulder, all in the same
instant that I shouted out "SHIT!" Miraculously, Meagan's sturdy
shoulder saved my ass and probably my entire race altogether. (Side note--I
read later that other runners behind me slipped and did indeed fall on this
same patch of ice, so I am
very lucky to
have run away without a bruise). I didn't wear a Garmin, and my average pace
through 6 miles was 5:57. If I wanted to run the A standard, I was on pace for
it.
After the fifth
mile, I could feel that Meagan was faltering. On the uphills, she fell back a
little bit and her breathing was more labored. Around the 10k mark, she fell
back and I telepathically willed her to stay with me, not just for her but
also, selfishly, for me. I knew we would both run better together and not on
our own. From that point forward, I just kept my eyes on the few people ahead
of me and focused on what I came here to accomplish, solo or not.
Up until the halfway
point, I continued traversing the rollercoaster course completely alone. The
downhills got steeper and the uphills got longer. Not because I was imagining
it, but because they actually were. I couldn't help but think that this course
was tougher than most people are led to believe. Everything still felt easy,
and my slowest mile had only been a 6:10 on one of the uphill miles. My stomach
was fine, my fueling had been fantastic, and I felt strong. I came through the
half in 1:18:20. Perfect.
But, I was still
completely alone. And this took its toll on me.
One man in a white
singlet passed me and I tried to keep him within sights. There were a couple of
guys 50-100 meters ahead of me and I passed a few girls that had dropped from
their pace. The next seven miles were spent battling my own mental thoughts.
I calculated how much more time I had running (less than 80 minutes is really
comforting actually when you're solo) and kept my eyes focused on the big
picture--getting to the finish in one piece. I wished that Meagan or Brett or
Laurie were with me, but they weren't so I had to be a big girl.
Get it done, just get it done.
This became my new
mantra, and I wasn't even hurting yet. I passed a blind man and his escort and
got a burst of motivation from both their presence but also their dedication. I
told him, "You're amazing" and continued on my way. Around mile 18, I
could sense that my legs were getting heavier, but my splits were still at 6:10
or below. We had turned directly into the wind, and at this point in the race,
I didn't need anything from Mother Earth to make my quest to the finish any
more difficult. Suddenly my entire face felt frozen and raw as the wind whipped
relentlessly at me.
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| Mile 17 - Freezing |
I continued to take
all my fluids to provide me motivation. I stopped trying to get my elite
bottles since they were so far away on the table and I had missed half of them
at this point. Instead, I took the cups of water at the normal stations. At one
station, I drank the water and my throat immediately burned, like someone had
put chili powder in it as a sick joke, which I believed could be entirely
possible. Immediately, I panicked. I thought for sure my throat was going to
tighten up and that I was going to have an allergic reaction (even though I'm
not allergic to anything). Instead, it was just that the water so damn cold
that it burned my freezing cold, raw throat. After a minute, the burning
sensation went away and I relaxed a little.
By mile 20, however,
things began to unravel. I began to notice all the little things. The 10mph
winds felt like 20mph. My face was numb from the cold. My left big toe was
burning--I had a blister. My quads felt like bricks were tied to them.
The final 10k of a
marathon is about how well you can push those very real, very bad feelings
aside and dig just a little bit deeper and hurt just a little bit more.
In order to come to
an agreement with the pain I was trying so hard to push away, I started to make
negotiations with myself. I told myself to maintain 6:15s through the
finish and that would still put me right under 2:40. I truly thought I could do
it, until mile 23, when I began to hit 6:25s and a woman passed me. I tried to
go with her, but she blasted by me, probably at 6:10 pace, which felt like a
sprint. I was doing all that I could to put one leg in front of the other. The
only solace I could find was that I had less than 20 minutes of running left
and that I most likely was still going to PR.
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| Mile 21 - Closing my Eyes |
By mile 25, the man
in the white singlet was nowhere in sight. The odd part was that I wasn't the
only one dying. I passed at least three men during these final miles, which was
a pleasant reminder that I wasn't dying as bad as some. Even though I had hit
the wall, I was still passing people.
My hotel finally
came within sight and I knew that I had less than 5 minutes of running. I heard
Jordan shout out for me and was slightly embarrassed for him to see firsthand
how much I had died. I rounded the final turn into the finish and
unceremoniously walked across the finish line, looking and feeling depleted. I
tried to smile, but it was almost impossible because of the cold.
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| Walking over the Finish Line |
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| I could barely smile |
I spent the next five minutes blundering around the finish line area, desperately searching for Gatorade. I was woozy and couldn't speak coherently and really just needed some damn sugar...and a warm bath. I glanced back at the finish line and waited until 2:43 to see if Meagan or Brett would be there, but didn't see them come through. Now I had to take care of myself. Volunteers almost took me to medical, but I really just wanted Gatorade and somehow escaped them. When no one could find any Gatorade, and only Coke, I asked for the Sutter House, where the elites got some special treatment.
I found my way there, hobbled up 12 stairs, and basically fell into Meagan's arms in both relief and sadness. Despite a sore hip, Meagan gutted out 18 miles at 6:05 pace before making the smart decision to call it quits. Despite this, Meagan put on the biggest smile for me, gave me the biggest hug ever and helped me as though I just was the most amazing person in the room. I knew that Meagan was disappointed and I was so grateful for her warmth and generosity in that warm room. Unfortunately for her, I didn't really offer any consolation on her race because I was too out of it, but she didn't care. Now, that's a great friend.
Jeannette finished in 6th place in 2:38:32 and also struggled desperately in that final 10k. Jordan commented that everyone slowed down a lot over the last half, which is either indicative of the wind, or poor racing tactics. I'll go with a combination of both. We found out later that Brett had been on pace to OTQ at 24.5 miles, but her foot broke and she spent the rest of the afternoon in the ER.
Until I settled into a warm bath, I didn't have enough energy to look through the flood of texts, phone calls and FaceBook posts that were filled to the brim with happiness for me. I was humbled by all the support from my friends and family, who are all truly my teammates in this journey to the Olympic Trials.
As I let my legs submerge in the hot water, I thought about the ten different ways I could have executed the race to perhaps come out with a different result. Then I realized that it didn't matter.
It may have been ugly, but I did it! I qualified for another Olympic Trials.
And there will be many more marathons where I can run even faster. Some day, I will achieve the goal that Garrett shouted out to me at the airport.
But first I must savor these next couple of weeks in Kauai and Los Angeles.
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| Post Race Fun with Matt, Drew Jordan and Meagan (Photo Courtesy of Jeannette) |
